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            I hate drama. i have to do a monolague in front of the whole class. Thats not that bad but im kinda shy so it feels like torture to me. But no one ever talks to me in that class. i have no friends whatsoever and it feels like im a social outcast who doesn't exist. If i really thought about it though its not that big of a deal and i hardly know anyone in the class anyways. school kind of feels the same way...i dont feel like myself...how i used to be. its like ive clammed up and i hardly do or say anything funny anymore. i feel so stupid sometimes and i hate it.

            anyways...yesterday my dad told me that i should start a rumour at school about him because the last one died down. the last one was that he had a pacemaker. he does it cause he enjoys it. but anyways he told me i should tell everyone he has a tatoo on his er um rump. lol and the tatoo itself is the quadratic equation...for all those who dont know what that is its X= -b plus or minus the square root of b squared-4ac all over 2a. in numbers but i couldnt find them on my keyboard. i told kaylee that and she actually believed me...and i thought i was gullible. my dad would never get a tatoo.  

         hmm im extrememely bored...oh im going to start getting singing lessons pretty soon and im probably going to start dance lessons after christmas. that should be fun except i dont know how to dance. next week i have so many tests...lets see on the 14th, 15th, and the 16th i have drama tests. i have a biology test on the 16th, a history test on the 15th, a algebra 2 test on the 17th, a spanish test on the 15th. thats 5 classes that i have tests in out of 7. im tired of typing so im gonna go ....bye

       Hey, wow i havent updated in a while. i haven't really wanted to post though. Time has passed by really fast... Alot of things have happened...mostly there not very good. but thats ok because ive realized that alot more people have it way worse then i do. so i shouldnt whine about all the things that a have gone wrong these past few months.

      im glad volleyballs over, i hate practicing. basketball practice starts on monday. im having this thing at my house tomorrow...im nervous. i havent really done something for my birthday since i was in 6th or 7th grade. Usually id just go to dinner with my family. i dont really feel any different being a year older. today i got out of drama and it was really kool because i hate drama. it was a meeting about a carnival. its for the little kids but i think it should be for high schoolers because itd be so much fun. iris and austin and i have to decide what games we wanna do. hmm what if we pick a really sucky game and everyone gets mad at us. oh well. im also helping with the SADD group too. so next saturday i gues my days filled...

        my dad is awesome. he helped me clean the house for my party. i got my report card today...i have ok grades...im proud of em..i just hope i can keep em that way for semester. a centrialia college representative is coming on monday, tuesday, or wednsday, i dont member when. but i really need to talk to her bout running start. i have to make a really big decision this year and im kinda scared cause ihave no idea what i want to be and so i have to make a decision that might not be the right one. i also have to take my ascet test this year right after the wasls. that really sucks. im prolly gonna fail at least one of em. anyways i dont wanna think bout it till i have too. im bored so im gonna get off...

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"The getaway"

      by hilary duff

Here I am again
Talking to myself
Sitting at a red light
Both hands on the wheel
How am I supposed to feel?
So much running through my mind
First you wanna be free
Now you say you need me
Giving mixed signals in size
It's so hard to let you in
Thinking you might slam the brakes again

Push the pedal down
Heading out of town
Gotta make a getaway
The traffic in my brain's
Driving me insane
This is more than I can take
You tell me that you love me first
Then throw your heart into reverse
I gotta get away

I can't keep coming back to you
Every time you're in the mood
To whisper something sweet in my ear
It's so hard to move on
Cause every time I think you're gone
You show up in my rearview mirror

Is this just a detour?
Cause I gotta be sure
That you really mean what you say
It's so hard to let you in
Thinking you might slam the brakes again

Push the pedal down
Heading out of town
Gotta make a getaway
The traffic in my brain's
Driving me insane
This is more than I can take
You tell me that you love me first
Then throw your heart into reverse
I gotta get away
To a place where I can be redefined
Where you're out of sight
And you're out of mind
But the truth is I can't even say goodbye

Here I am again
Talking to myself
Sitting at a red light
Both hands on the wheel
How am I supposed to feel?
So much running through my mind

Push the pedal down
Heading out of town
Gotta make a getaway (a getaway)
The traffic in my brain's
Driving me insane
This is more than I can take (I can take)
You tell me that you love me first
Then throw your heart into reverse
I gotta get away